Feel, want, overthink, realise- On repeat!





Well emotions can be very tricky. They can really let you have the upper handle if someone has feelings for you and sometimes push you off the cliff if you have them for someone. Having said that, it doesn’t mean it has to go the rocky way only, but; if anything goes into extreme it does tend to get a little weird.


Go with the flow!


Isn’t this the phrase we often tell ourselves when we start overthinking and speculating everything we do when we want to be at our best behaviours. We never keep telling ourselves this over and over again when we need to freak out or hit the panic button. But this needs to be done!


Be yourself!


Does this really happen? If you want someone to like you, are you truly yourself from the beginning? I guess most of are, but is it really how we portray ourselves? We try to be at our best behaviour. We try to make an impression that the person we want to impress gets impressed. We do need to be ourselves. Remind yourself over and over again!


Now, there is nothing wrong in impressing the person we like, BUT in life as everything goes, everything needs a balance, we can’t always keep doing what we do and then think why is this not working? Don’t overdo anything that will make the other person or yourself run for the hills.

Balance is the key!


Now this is quite a tricky solution. Everyone thinks it’s super easy but it isn’t…Going into extremes is a lot easier. Having a balance is quite the roller coaster ride. Maintaining a balance is something of an art which needs to be learnt. Most people NEVER get it. BUT the key to anything in life is to keep trying and to strive to attain it.

Let the person be a part of your life and don’t make the person your life!

When we’re into someone, even if it’s a family member, we tend to make them our life’s project. I think that is where we go tumbling down the hill.

Everyone needs space and time to do their own thing.

Too much of anything, as said earlier- extreme, isn’t the right thing.

Space is so important &  as they say-

Time and distance can make or break just about anything!

Life has so many facets and everyone of them need to be explored, we can’t let a few emotions get the better of us.

If you feel you’ve been slipping, well wipe that floor clean and get your act straight.

Try something that interests you and gets you back into living your life. 

We have to try and not let our emotions get the better of us, emotions can make or break us, it is upto us to realise how to handle them and mould them in such a way to make us the person we truly are!

Strong, independent and we can pull through anything we put your mind and hearts into!

I dream of You!


I can feel something anew,

I just can’t pinpoint it,

This feeling of rejuvenation,

The intense and sheer force of it,

I feel I might topple over,

The rush that it ignites,

The desire that it portrays,

Makes me dizzy with anticipation,

Want it to be real,

But I fear it’s just something that’s magical,

One second it’s here and the other it’s non-existional,

I don’t want this feeling to go away,

Yet, I know I have to be realistic.

One can never tell whats coming our way,

To feel this way is in itself is special,

I thank my stars for this experience,

I hope there is more to it’s existence,

I don’t want this dream to end,

I don’t want to open my eyes and shudder at it’s disappearance.

In this walk of life,

You will always be a key factor,

I have hardly known you but it seems I know you since forever,

I can feel this is just the beginning and not the end,

Just a dream, A dream of you…closer.

Confident or Confused?

Hey and a lovely Sunday afternoon to you all…Have you ever felt that however or whatever the case maybe that confidence in life plays a very important role? People can do the weirdest stuff in life and get away with it with their confidence. Anyway, I have started feeling that the way we look or the way we live our lives plays a top notch role for our confidence levels. If you are not sure of yourself, how can you expect someone else to have faith in you or for that matter like you?  Confidence in yourself is VERY important. Sometimes we need to build it from scratch.

Also,when you’re not in your comfort zone confidence levels tend to waver. You are always confident with your own set of people and everything seems to be unicorns and rainbows.(At least for the people who really like their friends a lot!)

Meeting new people and trying to fit in can be a challenge. It’s not difficult but it’s not easy either. I guess one can say it’s takes a certain time frame to find that sweet spot to even things out.


It takes time to get to know someone. and YES! -confidence plays an important role even there! We need to feel that you are interesting and exciting for others to want to get to know you. If you doubt yourself in the process you’re digging yourself down the rabbit hole.

Confidence is a very tricky emotion. You have to deal with it and balance it out. Some people go overboard and are overconfident and some really let go and are not confident at all. As everything in life we need to find a balance and it’s very tricky to do so.

On that note…I shall confidently assume you guys like reading my ramblings. Please comment below and let me know if you would like to read anything in particular. I will try and do my best and write on that particular topic.

Enjoy the rest of today and don’t forget to enjoy life the perfect way- YOUR way!

Over and out for now.

I haven’t found you yet; 

Even so I keep wondering if you’ll stay with me till the end,

Life is so unpredictable, yet at times so simple to explain, 

I’m happy where I am but you’re  like a missing piece from a beautiful puzzle, 

Without that piece the picture isn’t complete, 

That tiny piece makes the incomplete- whole. 
Happiness is a state of mind, but we can seldom figure out the heart, 

It  alone knows what it wants,

And when it wants it just keeps on wanting, 

The trick is to go with your instinct along with the flutters against your chest, 
Life is so short or so they say, 

It’s not the life span that matters but how you’ve lived it, 

Quality over quantity, 

But I beg to differ, 

Who wants to live short? 

Atleast I don’t, 

My life isn’t and won’t be complete until I’ve found you! 

The missing piece…

Please like me! 


It’s been a lovely lazy misty day here at Wellington and I have been meaning to write on this topic for sometime now. So here goes…

Do you like when everyone around you likes you and wants to get to know you? I mean come on- I am sure there are very few people who don’t care and even if they show that they don’t care, I am sure they like it when people care. 

Anyhow, I have self analysed myself to be have an obsessive compulsive need to get in touch with the people I meet or try to be in regular touch as and when possible. 

Well, to term it as good or bad I leave it to you to figure that out. I feel most times it’s a plus point for me but sometimes it makes me feel/ look needy and vulnerable. I mean come on, why can’t people just be themselves, why the constant need to play games? 

I know to have a simple life would be boring but why does it have to be complicated when it comes to being normal and yourself?! 

Anyhow, each one to themselves. I have this very bad feeling when people don’t like to connect back or don’t bother if anyone connects with them. 

Have you guys seen the episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S where Monica is so upset when she isn’t liked by someone  around her. She goes out of her way to be liked. I am not like that but yes it does bother me a little if and when people act aloof. 

Hmmmm… So I need to get over this weird obsession. If someone doesn’t want to or don’t care enough to be in touch, I should just learn to let it be. Ignore…they don’t deserve my presence in their lives. 

I am blessed with my family and friends who love me to bits. That should suffice me. Taking baby steps at trying to rectify my faults. 

Also, have you guys ever felt that you should learn to say NO ? I mean I deal with that a LOT. Sometimes I just can’t say NO and I really need to deal with the consequences then!  

So here’s to trying to better ourselves each day and thanking the universe for this gorgeous life! Cheers! 

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Just talking..

Hey, Been ages since I have written and I think it’s because I have kind of lost of confidence to write. I feel I am not the
“ultimate creative writer” ( I hope I am using the quotes properly), as everyone around me seems to be more sorted with the english language than I am. I suck at grammar and also with technology and auto correct- you tend to forget how to spell basic spellings at times. With super fast texting we forget to use punctuation too. I mean, I have to make a conscious effort if I want to make sense in a sentence with proper punctuation.Anywho, I know I went to a real nice english school with an amazing english teacher but I just didn’t pay proper attention. I mean I know the minor basics but if you ask me to recognise a verb or an adjective, I’ll be scratching my head or telling you to give me a minute and then go to dictionary.com or the dictionary app or google it! Phew! Man, how it sucks to know your mistakes but still not want to do anything majorly about them!  Why do I feel so lame and stupid when people are just conversing normally but at the same time using such complicated words and grammatical terms. I know it’s not all that difficult but my brain refuses to acknowledge their existence and if it does acknowledge it,it wants to just hide under the blanket and want to stay there till the grammar police leaves!!! I do intend to better myself sometime in the future…( psst…notice how I ignored the present?) I got this book with some  basic exercises to help me write better. I got stuck on chapter 2…CHAPTER 2! Can you believe it? I am sure a child in school would have known.( Well,in my defence, kids these days are real smart.)  I have been told, that I write as I speak, I mean I have been thinking…Is that a good thing or a bad thing?  Don’t we always tell people to speak their minds?


I have been watching a lot of stand up comedians on Netflix and also Youtube. I watch some Vlogs which are quite the “IN” thing since the past 6 years or more now. Quite a few people are into it but my favourites are Lily Singh aka Superwoman and Cassey Neistat for their Vlogs. Gabriel Eglesias and Russel Peters for their comedy amongst others. Superwoman has these amazing videos every Monday and Thursday that kinda crack me up.  It’s all in good humour but one can learn a lot from their videos and humour. They all choose to make us laugh and make our day better. Even in the Vlogs they are there to give us a good time. Watching them on-screen, gives us the feeling we’re with them and living some of the things they are doing.  I know, I know…Get out of the house, Get a life… These kinda things are racing in your mind while you are reading this!  But I feel technology is fun, I like to live life on both sides of the grass…For me it’s greener either way.  I tend to be with my family moreover and they love to home hop every time it’s extremely hot or extremely cold on one side.  That been said, yes I am lucky. I am so lucky and grateful. Thank you to every little thing in my life. Big shoot out to the universe for all the blessings!  I have also realised the true meaning of being happy where you are. The truest saying being, ‘if life gives you lemons…have some tequila shots!’ Though, I am a more whiskey kinda gal. Ah…The happiness that even a shot of single malt can give.


Now you people thing I am talking like an alcoholic and I need to attend an AA class. LOL   Okay enough of this mundane rambling…I was told just the other day that people like to read my blog posts coz I write short and sweet and to the point. I doubt It’s short but yes I may ramble at times…this maybe a little longer as I haven’t written in like 2 months. I mean in the blue hills I always write better and more but this time it took me a little longer to get to writing.  Hope next time I can write sooner. I hope you all who take out the time to read my blog enjoy this one. Thank you for your time and patience.  Love to all!

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Sweet dreams…

sweet-dreams1Have you guys ever had dreams that have left you wondering—what were you thinking?! Dreams are places you go to that you don’t think you allow yourself to go when you’re awake. It can be all dreamy, shit scary or weirdly inappropriate at times. Makes you wonder and shudder when you can recall what you dreamt about or the fragments of the dream. The best part is that those are you dreams and you thank your stars people have not learnt the art of reading minds atleast just yet.

Phew! Some dreams can be close calls. Some make you feel like a teenager whose just learning the ways of the world. Some make you feel freakishly old.Sometimes you get up all rejuveniated and sometimes you feel that you’ve done the work of 2 days in one night while you were asleep! Go figure! The mind keeps working  while you’re asleep…I so look forward to the nights I actually don’t dream. That is the night I feel I have let my mind rest.

For someone who doesn’t have any major responsibilities in life—atleast not yet, one can’t say for the future; I still feel I do think a lot,even when I know I am not really thinking about anything specific.
I have come to terms with life and as I keep reminding myself and reminding people around me, heh, that I like taking each day as it comes, every step of the way,slow and steady.

They say we don’t use our brain to it’s total capacity, actually only a certain percentage is used.In the most weird ways I am glad I am no Eistein, Coz if I was I doubt I would have gotten any sleep or if I did sleep I’d have gotten even weirder dreams. Not getting a dream and sleeping dreamless would be a wish come true.

And I have heard that the genie in the bottle only hands out three wishes…or was I dreaming when he told me so?

I wish you guys dreamless nights…Or should I say sweet dreams?!


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Days pass and you feel like being alone. You want clarity but all you feel is chaos. It’s like a battle inside you, your head and heart fighting it out. You want to map out your whole life but you can’t seem to get past the day without leaving your bed. You want to scream but love the silence that surrounds you.

From childhood you’re surrounded by people telling you and sharing how Life should be and how it should be lived. You grow up thinking this is the mold and you want life just like this!

Sometimes you’re one of the brave ones who want to explore life and colour outside the lines but still the colouring book remains the same as everyone else’s. As a human being you tend to want to be with someone and be loved and cherished…BUT you also love your space and want things your way. Why do we always find something missing and never see what we have? Why do we always wait for things that are to happen and never see what the things that are happening to us and making us the people we are today!

Why is the future more appealing that the present or the memories of the past?

Why oh why do we have so many questions and we never really listen to the answers that are whispered to us by our own subconscious.

Why do we have barriers that we build ourselves? Why do things have to be this way only, why can’t there be two rights to anything.

We need to open our minds and our souls…We need to understand what we really want from our lives.

We are scared of death but we still don’t know what we are living for! We feel we need to prove ourselves at every step.

Too many thoughts ; even when you’re asleep you’re mind is working and that is why our dreams take place and you are exhausted when you’re awake.

Have you ever felt that all you want in life is to be loved and love someone in return? Family and friends give us this love too…but just the feeling of belonging to another human being and that person belonging to you? Many of us get to witness this and many of us are left dreaming of such a person.

But as they say…Life must go on.Life can be lived alone and happy.Life should be enjoyed every which way one can.

The freedom to make your own mistakes, your own choices.The freedom to ask for advice and the freedom to realise that you’re on the right track or wrong and change course.

It’s good to take time-out sometimes for your own thoughts.

People feel that if someone is all by themselves it’s depression. In fact, every person has their own coping mechanism. In my case I like my incognito mode, though I am never completely in it. I have my set of people I like to be in touch with.

The choices always remain YOURS…Never let anyone tell you how or what to do!

Life is and will always be as simple or as complicated as we make it. It’s our perception that matters at every given circumstance.

As always you are the writer to your own story…you can write it as open as the green meadow or you write it totally Incognito!